I Could Never Say ‘Thank You’ Enough!

God has been so good to Ramel and I. It’s not anything specific; it’s just everything!

Thank you Lord for my life and my health and just being there for me everyday! If I didn’t have You, I don’t know what I would do!

My boy’s Senior Prom is coming up this weekend and I just pray that he is safe and has a wonderful time. I am SO thankful that I am able to financially to make it happen. I was out of work for 10 years and we struggled so hard for everything. I really asked God to allow me to be able to get Ramel the things he needed for his senior year of high school.  God has NEVER, EVER let me down!

I cannot tell God enough how thankful I am. I want to be obedient, Lord, and I know I mess up. Please forgive me and thank You for loving me anyway!!

Introducing My New Blog: Letters To My Future Husband

For those of you who have been with me for awhile, you know that I am at the stage of my life where I really want someone to share my future with. I am 43 years old, divorced for 14 years, with a 17 year old son.

I’m trusting God to bring the right man into my life.God knows better than I do who that should be. I’ve had some relationships that I really thought were for a lifetime,but as always, I find myself alone.

I’m not bitter; but I AM tired of being alone.

It’s time for me to concentrate on myself, now that I have raised my son on my own. God has blessed me with so much and I KNOW He’s not going to stop now.

I trust you, God. You know my heart and my desires.

Introducing my new blog: Letters To My Future Husband

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Overwhelmed

So much has happened in my life in the past six months. I’m trying my best to keep up. God is working miracles for Mel and I everyday.

Sometimes I fall behind with things at home and forget a few tasks here and there, but overall I think I am adjusting well to everything.

Lord, show me which direction to go in. Give me the strength and wisdom I need.

PS. Prepare me for my future husband.

Waiting on God: Not an Easy Thing

I have officially started my new schedule! God is good!

I see His hand in everything around me and I am very thankful that alot of times He doesn’t give me the chance to mess things up!

I have to refocus on my health and I have already jump started that! Beginning work after so many years threw me off alittle, but now that I’ve been working going on 6 months, I can get a grip on a routine and get moving!

Ramel is doing fine. 17 now with pierced ears! We are both moving into new chapters in our lives. Lord, you know my hearts desires and you are bringing them to pass. Please give me the patience to wait on you and to hear your voice when it says MOVE.

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God, I See You Moving!

Thank you Lord for this day. I may be alittle tired, but I’m hanging in there.

Work is coming along just fine and life is moving on. I see God’s hands in my life everyday and I am thankful for that! Without God, I don’t even think I could wake up and function sometimes!

I see God moving by looking at the people he is introducing me to. People with like minds. People with a future. People who are trying to do things.

I just wanted to hop on here and say Thank you Lord. I love you.

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2015 And Thankfulness

In 2014, my life has gone through so many changes. A year ago this time, my life looked very different. Some changes were drastic and others were pretty simple, but all of them were very necessary.

I’m thankful for the friends who have stood by me and helped me get through the tough times. Sometimes, when I think about how good God has been to me, I can’t do anything but shake my head. I don’t deserve His goodness, but I am so grateful for it. Every step of the way He has been with Mel and I, protecting us and making sure that we have all that we need.

I am thankful for Mel’s Big Couple, Patrick and Monika, my family and everything that has been placed in my life over this last year. God knows what He’s doing and I trust Him.

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2014 in review!!

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 2,400 times in 2014. If it were a cable car, it would take about 40 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

The Reality of it Is…

The Reality of it is:

I’m back to work after 10 years of being at home.

I’m FULL TIME after 10 years of being AT HOME.

I am a type 2 diabetic.

I suffer from PTSD and Depression

I’ve just recently gotten my heart broken

and I’m stepping into a new level of life.

Know what? I’m tired. Mentally and physically, sometimes I feel exhausted. I have my UP days and when I do, I really enjoy the feeling. The DOWN days are hard…excruciating really.

Lord, please show me the little things I can start doing to get my health under control. I know that will go a long way to making me feel better mentally. I need you Jesus. I can’t do any of this alone. Thank you for bringing me this far. I know you won’t leave me.

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Getting Back to the Basics

I grew up writing poetry. I had books and books of things that I had written. I loved sitting down and reading some of the older stuff. I lost all of my poetry in an apartment fire in 2006. I don’t think I’ve written since then. Every time I would think about losing all of my writing, it would hurt.

I’ve decided to start again. I’m getting back to the basics.

Writing gives me a certain release that I can’t get anywhere else. I can say what I really feel and it comes out much clearer than if I try to speak the words.

Here is my first poem in over 8 years:

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